Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Luminous Confession
I am not "luminous"...
TRUE LUMINESCENCE Is God.
When I say that I want to reflect the Light,
like the moon reflects the sun,
it is more wishful thinking -
a prayer, even, one could say -
than anything else.
They joked that Beethoven might have not
composed an extra symphony
had he known it would have been used
-eventually- by the self-serving dolt
whose real name is Levesque, not Helmsley.
Edith Wharton might not have penned
her famous Light-reflecting phrase
either - if she had foreseen that
I would have used it eventually
so shamelessly, so whimsically...
For if I was truly "luminous" -
I would not push away everyone I love.
I would not cumulate regrets -
and hesitate so much to
"do the right thing"
or quite simply "go for it"...
If I was truly "luminous",
I would not be so pessimistic.
If I was truly "luminous",
I would not be so glum - today.
Or any other day...
I look back, and all I see
is a series of mishaps;
too few "good moves"
and too many
disappointments -
some of which,
I am sad to admit,
I occasionated myself.
No, I am not half as luminous
as my web persona is.
I preach a good message;
and cannot do as well
as I tell others to do...
Like a priest used to say,
back in the country
where my ancestors were born;
he'd say "do as I say
and don't do as I do."
I am forced to come to the conclusion
that I am just like he was...
I look at the glass half-empty
not as half-full -
I expect the worst,
not often the best...
I try to see Christ in the other;
I do not succeed often at this.
In that, I do not think I am wrong;
not because the majority of people
are also distrustful of everyone they meet
but because the majority of people today
do not even know Christ;
much less have Him in them...
I confess that I have little
to no faith - in Humanity.
I never hid that fact.
I try to be a worthy reflector of Light
His Light - God's Light
And I wonder how I can truly do that.
How can I represent His Love
on this wretched earth -
when I do not know how to love
or how to show it to others -
and when I cannot love
myself
because of that.
Anyone I ever hurt
-in any way-
please forgive me.
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Monday, November 12, 2007
Prayer Request
Tomorrow, somebody I know will go under the knife to remove a CANCEROUS GROWTH that could threaten her life, evidently...
There are more important things than your PRIDE... or MINE... any words exchanged that all parties involved deeply regret... There are more important things than your ambitious goals and mine... There are far more important and graver troubles than the contrarieties that we face, on a daily basis oftentimes. There are more important things than the soaring prices of gasoline and other things we can definitely do without, also...
What we cannot do without is HEALTH -
in this life...
I urge you all,
everyone who may be reading this,
to stop for a moment
and pray for Sandee S,
who will be operated on
this Tuesday the 13th
to remove that cancer.
Pray for the procedure to go well,
without a hitch.
Pray for a speedy
and complete recovery
for Sandee S.
She may have been a smoker
but she has a heart of gold
and did not deserve
to be so stricken with illness.
Cancer is a scourge.
They say 'no one deserves it'
- not even, say, a Hitler...?
Sandee is much closer to
Mother Teresa,
Thérèse de Lisieux
or Padre Cruz -
so she definitely did not
deserve such a trial.
But I would not say the same
for "no one"...
Still, I never wished this;
not even on my worst enemy.
But today,
I see this disease
threatening the life
of a dear, dear ladyfriend.
So PLEASE -
send your prayers
and "positive vibes"
to Florida...
c/o Sandee S.
Thank you.
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Sunday, November 11, 2007
Remembrance Day 2007
WE REMEMBER
BECAUSE
IT IS IMPOSSIBLE
TO FORGET.
OUTRIGHT FORGETTING
WOULD VERILY BE THEN
SOMETHING AKIN TO
SHEDDING ONE'S
HUMANITY...
EVEN THE WORST OF US
HAS A SOUL
AND A HEART.
EVEN HE
CANNOT FORGET.
WE ALL REMEMBER.
AND NOT JUST TODAY EITHER.
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